The direct, instant connection to the WDBJ murderer yesterday morning truly horrified me and took me to new frightening place. I spent the whole morning watching the news unfold and I had to unplug and calm myself down from the utter shock and mindfuck as I grasped that I just read tweets and watched footage of humans dying DIRECTLY from the murderer himself. It felt as if he was standing right next to me. My heart felt like it was going explode at the rate it was beating. This was some next level shit. American terrorism, now given to us raw, direct and instant, becoming our new, acceptable normal.
"They were as real and vulnerable in their utter normalcy as you or I are, and the sight and sound of them dying is the terminal convergence of the policies that we endorse and allow to endure in this country."
-Jeb Blund, Rollingstone
To be conscious, to care for what's going on in this age is to TRULY often be exhausted, overwhelmed and then hopeless that solutions will ever find us. Ev-ver-ry time we just carry on from shootings like this one or any immense act of violence we open the door for the next one. We are never met with an aide of comfort but instead, sooner or later, another fruit of our neglect. A man, a mentally ill man obtained a gun, murdered two humans, on live television, recorded his own personal videos and proudly shared them with the world.
This is our reality. This is where we are and I am terrified......... and tired.